And What am I doing??!? I mean in terms of my occupation. Don't get me wrong. I love my jobs. I love helping people and engaging with the world at large. I miss nannying and being a part of shaping the next generation. But what is my "big kid", "adult" or "real" job. You know the one that I dread the government taxing, the one that inspires me to rise before 8am, the career that I am a part of till I retire. These are what I associate with this occupation/job growing up that I dreamed of having... But where is it?
I find myself surrounded by questions of My purpose, of my specific contribution to this world. And I feel that to be so much bigger than working in the mall part-time. I'm not saying that I can't be all the adjectives my childhood self listed while working minimum wage retail, I just want more.
But don't we all? We all want to know that we are needed and wanted and necessary; that there is a task only we can succeed it. Well... Where's my task? Where are the big dreams I have? How long do I have to wait to do my part?
I know I could tell myself of God's perfect timing, and how he works everything out for his glory. I would advise myself to see everyday as a blessing and a learning opportunity for this "big dream". To hold fast and not be discouraged...
So I will. I'll listen to what God is saying, for he does have perfect timing and he does work everything out for his glory. I will see everyday as a blessing and a learning opportunity for my "big dream". I will trust in him, for he knows my hearts desires, especially when I don't.
And I will stand firm in the fact the while I may desire to be happy when I'm grown up, my joy is found in the Lord.
