Monday, April 8, 2013

The real reason I don't blog is....

(Cue dramatic music)

Pinterest
And games
And laziness
And lack of vision

I've got to figure out my niche.... Maybe fun facts.

Here we go... Cynthia's pondering of the day...

How small America is compared to the rest of the world, I mean look at this picture? Could we Americans be on any bigger of a trip?



Monday, November 5, 2012

Spiritual Gifts Assessment...


From a test I took a few years backs... still true!

Your dominant gifts are Exhortation, Pastor/Shepherd

The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your number one dominant gift is EXHORTATION! The Greek word "parakaleo" means to admonish, to encourage, to beseech. You are a "how to" person. You have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by motivating others to action by urging them to pursue a course of conduct. In a teaching position, you are able to explain how to apply God's Word. Your goal is to present material that enables the Holy Spirit to promote change in the student's life. You reach out and help Christians become more mature.
As an exhorter you are a very practical person, a good counselor, tolerant of others, serious-minded, orderly, and usually impulsive. You are expressive in a group setting; the group listens when you speak. You are comfortable working one-on-one or in groups. You are enthusiastic and talkative and enjoy encouraging others.
You are burdened to show how Scripture relates to conduct and have a desire to unify people by using practical rather than doctrinal issues. You likely place great importance on God's will and believe that His Word has the answer for every problem. You tend to make decisions logically rather than on feelings and are very orderly.
Be careful not to interrupt other people; your enthusiasm sometimes makes you guilty of this. Others may think you don't use enough Scripture in teaching because you tend to use Scripture to support what you are teaching rather than starting with Scripture.
Unlike teachers, you have the willingness to teach the same material again and again, updating and perfecting it as you do. As a counselor you usually have the ability to leave other people's problems "in the office" rather than letting them drag you down.
Beware of Satan's attack on your gift. He may cause pride in your motivational abilities. He may influence you to lose sight of people because of program emphasis. Don't become discouraged when results are not evident. Be careful not to encourage others to do the wrong things through your persuasive abilities.

The results of your Spiritual Gifts Inventory indicate that your second dominant gift is PASTORING/SHEPHERDING! The Greek word "poimen" means pastor. In Paul's spiritual gifts listing in Ephesians 4:11, this term is translated "pastor." Although the word "poimen" is translated pastor only one time in Scripture it is used sixteen additional times. The remaining sixteen are all translated "shepherd." Therefore, we are actually discussing the GIFT of shepherding, not the POSITION of pastor. Though a good pastor must have the gift of shepherding, everyone who has the gift of shepherding is not called to be pastor. The gift can be used in many positions in a church.
As a gifted shepherd, you have the Spirit-given capacity and desire to serve God by overseeing, training, and caring for the needs of a group of Christians. You are usually very patient, people-centered, and willing to spend time in prayer for others. You tend to be a "Jack of All and Master of ONE," meaning you are usually dominant in one of the speaking gifts (evangelist, prophet, teacher, exhorter) as well. You are often authoritative, more a leader than a follower, and expressive, composed, and sensitive. Your pleasing personality draws people to you.
You have a burden to see others learn and grow and are protective of those under your care. You want to present the whole Word of God and do not like to present the same materials more than once. You are willing to study what is necessary to feed your group and are more relationship oriented than task oriented. You are a peace-maker and diplomat - very tolerant of people's weaknesses. You tend to remember people's names and faces. You are more concerned with doing for others than others doing for you. You are faithful and devoted and may become a workaholic. You can become an all-purpose person in order to meet needs.
People with the gift of shepherding make the best Sunday school teachers and group leaders because their desire is to go beyond just teaching or leading, to shepherd and minister to the daily needs of their students. The position of Sunday school teacher or group leader is an extension of the pastoral ministry in the church. These groups should be shepherded on a small scale the same as the pastor shepherds the whole congregation on a large scale.
Be careful to involve other people; don't try to do it all yourself. Work on making people accountable. Do not be overly protective of your "flock." Because of these potentially weak areas, other people may think it is your job to do all the work; they rely too heavily on you. You may be expected to be available at all times, know all the answers, and be at every function. Learn when to say no.
Beware of Satan's attack on your gift. He will cause discouragement when the load gets heavy, and pride because your "sheep" look up to you. You may develop family problems because of too little time and attention. You may become selfish when "sheep" feed in other pastures.




Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Reflected intentionality

Priorities...

I have spent my life giving so much to others, and being seemingly ignored back. I invest my time, energy, and resources into others because I truly do love to serve and see them happy and fulfilled. But it hurts me greatly when this investment is not returned.

I tell myself, it's not important, that we just have different love languages, that our relationship isn't measured by normal standards... Bah. I just desire some reflective intentionality. I want to feel appreciated and sought after, my friendship pursued and valued. I want to called when they are in town, texted a picture that reminded them of me, etc.
I want a relationship, a two-way street.
Is that truly too much to desire?

Monday, September 17, 2012

Suffocating passion

What is passion and can it be suffocated?
I feel the air has been knocked out of me, like I've been in a vacuum.
What is passion? I know in my head what I've been called to do; But my heart hesitates. I've been surviving for so long putting what I thought were dreams on hold in order to meet my basic needs...
But isn't your passion, your calling, something that you can never hide or fight? I mean, I have this expectation that if I was truly passionate about something, the nothing would stand in my way, but is that the truth.?
When finally confronted with an opportunity to put my "passion" to use in a 'professional' setting, I was asked to rethink and pray about it.
Why?
I struggle to breathe, fear envelopes my heart and threatens to stifle me.

Oh God, please speak the truth and may I open my ears to your voice only.

All that we might see Christ ... John 12:21

We would see Jesus. John 12:21
By Charles spurgeon

"Is this thy condition, my reader, at this moment? Hast thou but one desire, and is that after Christ? Then thou art not far from the kingdom of heaven. Hast thou but one wish in hthy heart, and that one wish that thou mayest be washed from all thy sins in Jesus' blood? Canst thou really say, "I would give all I have to be a Christian; I would give up everything I have and hope for, if I might but feel that I have an interest in Christ?" Then, despite all thy fears, be of good cheer, the Lord loveth thee, and thou shalt come out into daylight soon, and rejoice in the liberty wherewith Christ makes men free."

I often read passages and words like the above and question my pursuit of Christ. Is Jesus my one desire? Is my one wish to be washed in his blood? My mind speaks the logical truth of this, my heart affirms this aching, but does my life reflect the desire?

Everyday we encounter an onslaught of sinful and heavenly desires, wishes, and dreams; but do we, do I, choose to set my eyes and heart upon that which is true and holy?
Expectations flood us of what is looks like to seek after a life dedicated to searching out the heart of god; but do we, do I choose to pursue those expectation rooted in Jesus Christ?

Does my life reflect a sacrifice? While Jesus Christ is the only pure sacrifice, am I positioning my life on the alter to be used to further God's kingdom?

From first breath to last cry, may my heart, mind, and soul seek to desire the father who created all, the spirit who guides all, and the son who gave all.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

"I wanna be happy"

Ever since I was little, when people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would reply "happy". I seriously would. As I grew older, I added such adjectives as: "impactful", "inspiring", and "a light for Christ", but I still never had a specific title for myself. Don't get me wrong, I went through my teacher, culinary artist, archeologist phases but they never quite fit. I even went to college and chose the degree pastoral studies- not for the dream of becoming a tax-exempt, working every Sunday pastor, but for what the major taught me: leadership, hermeneutics, basic management, counseling, etc. I don't regret my degree, I just don't know what to do with it.

And What am I doing??!? I mean in terms of my occupation. Don't get me wrong. I love my jobs. I love helping people and engaging with the world at large. I miss nannying and being a part of shaping the next generation. But what is my "big kid", "adult" or "real" job. You know the one that I dread the government taxing, the one that inspires me to rise before 8am, the career that I am a part of till I retire. These are what I associate with this occupation/job growing up that I dreamed of having... But where is it?

I find myself surrounded by questions of My purpose, of my specific contribution to this world. And I feel that to be so much bigger than working in the mall part-time. I'm not saying that I can't be all the adjectives my childhood self listed while working minimum wage retail, I just want more.

But don't we all? We all want to know that we are needed and wanted and necessary; that there is a task only we can succeed it. Well... Where's my task? Where are the big dreams I have? How long do I have to wait to do my part?

I know I could tell myself of God's perfect timing, and how he works everything out for his glory. I would advise myself to see everyday as a blessing and a learning opportunity for this "big dream". To hold fast and not be discouraged...

So I will. I'll listen to what God is saying, for he does have perfect timing and he does work everything out for his glory. I will see everyday as a blessing and a learning opportunity for my "big dream". I will trust in him, for he knows my hearts desires, especially when I don't.

And I will stand firm in the fact the while I may desire to be happy when I'm grown up, my joy is found in the Lord.



Monday, August 27, 2012

Hello Again!

Hello Everyone... or just myself,

I decided to start blogging again. I dont know the route this will take or where I will end up, but I want to get my thoughts out there. So here goes.

Ps. Here is a link to my previous blog since: 1. someone might want to see my archives, and 2. I always forget where it is :)
http://confessionsofonecalledbeloved.blogspot.com/